So very lost right now...

When I decided to start this blog..it was for the purpose of my friends and family to always be able to see my kids as they grow up. Never in a million years did I ever expect to have life throw such a curve to me. I've been told by many to just hand my problems over to God..so I did and to be honest..I wish I never have for the result is not what I expected nor wanted. I know that things will work out in the end...it's the inbetween that is going to be the hardest to over come.